onight, I put on my face mask, gathered all my tropical plants, and brought them into the bathroom. I treated them—and myself—to a soft, peaceful spa night.

But even in the middle of that peace, I spent three hours in the same fight I’ve been having for ten years—with my husband. It’s always the same story. Accusations of me cheating, while he’s the one who had a child with another woman and juggled three different girlfriends during our marriage.

My head hurts. I’m tired. Mentally drained.

Tonight, I gave in—not because I believe him, not because I’m wrong, but because I needed silence more than I needed to be right. I needed stillness. I needed to survive the night.

But don’t get it twisted—I’m not stupid. And I’m not losing sight of the one thing I want more than anything:
Freedom.

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